True Blood Season 2

Season 2 was a blast! Much better than S1, IMO. The plot was more intense and things were getting interesting. With the Maenad and Eric-Bill-Sookie relationship. The introduction to more complicated and interesting relationships ;)

The black eyes thing that the maenad did was scary though. I first saw this black-eyes thing in Bastille - Pompeii MV and I was freaked. Never did I expect I'd sit through so many episodes with so many people having black eyes >.<

I would really want to see how Eric would fall for Sookie, if he does. :D

Beyond Words

And the tears try to drain the sadness off. But all that it does is linger...

It hurts so so so much when the person who brings you down, who treats you worse than trash just in that moment, who calls you the worst things you ever had someone call you, is the same person who said he'll always love you.

What's worse is that that's not the first time. Nor second. To the point that you don't remember how many times you've had to deal with this... How many times must I be "violated", mistreated and disrespected before I can tell myself it's time to stop allowing myself to be hurt? How long should I keep myself from falling apart before I finally am able to let go? 

You will never know how it felt like. How it feels like. It's more than pain. It's helplessness, hopelessness, disappointed, emptiness... You won't know what to do. Walk away and give it all up? (Sounds like something you'd do). Or stay and take in everything while stubbornly holding onto the strings you know can break any time? 

"three thousand miles away

feels like it's forever

seems like yesterday

we were running around town together

this place just ain't the same

I miss the stormy weather

I'm not okay

three thousand miles"

I decided to be strong, like how I always did. But even "Superman" loves, hurts and falls. I'm only human... I have every right to bleed. But that doesn't mean you can take that for granted. Many times, you've chosen the easy way out of choosing to give up. I have not once made that an option. I don't know how far I can go now. 

I used to be, and even now, filled with thoughts about what we've been through together. All the tough and good times. I didn't want to let go because I couldn't bear to tear those pages away. Maybe now it's time to think about how many pages there are left to fill.. If the future is worth holding on to the past. 

No one deserves to be treated like shit. No one. Every one deserves to be treated right and with respect. If you can't respect and trust the person you love, how can you love? 

"It might sound absurd

But don't be naive

Even heroes have the right to bleed

I may be disturbed

But won't you conceive

Even heroes have the right to dream

And it's not easy to be me"

I trusted, I was torn apart and now, I'm falling...

What will be the last straw..?

True Blood Season 1

I haven't been posting about the shows I've watched because 1) they're too insignificant 2) not nice at all, that I only watched 10 minutes of it 3) I've been too busy (hah, busy) with Gossip Girl. I just finished the series and.... I'm too lazy to write anything about it because Gossip Girl IS Gossip Girl, it's awesome, love the clothes, shoes, music selection etc. But a tad disappointing towards the end of S6 because it got boring... and I wouldn't say I'm too surprised about the revelation of who's Gossip Girl. I kinda guessed who it was.

So! I've moved on the True Blood. I don't know who told me this is nice and recommended me to watch it because when I did, I was like "HOLY CRAP. What kind of show is this?!" It's very sadistic, gory, porny (if it's even a word) and a little scary. I wasn't prepared for this at all.

The plot's not THAT fantastic but towards the end of S1 it got interesting with all the random funny weird people appearing and vampires are just too mainstream. I just got to the end of S1 and it ended with the scene of Bill making love to Sookie and drank from her. And the me as usual went "isn't it gross if a vampire bites you, drinks from you, and kisses you? It's like drinking your own blood".

Overall it's an okay series to watch except that the cast isn't that fantastic as well. (No hunks, no preets). I'm prolly just curious how the story's gonna unfold in S2.

Just Another Dream?

I dreamt that I was pregnant during my nap early today. And it's not the first time. Haha. But this time it was different. The past times were just knowing you were preggy and/or having a baby in your arms. But this time I had a tummy and I knew the baby was due very soon. My mum was supportive and I volunteered her to be in the operating theatre with me. I could feel my stiff stomach and the little one moving within me.

Well, the whole dream itself is weird, scary, yet that feeling of having your own child in you is just amazing. I've always wondered about what being a Mother is like and have always admired these incredible beings. The feeling of bearing a child is terrifying yet it's one of the most amazing things that can happen to you. I don't even want to imagine the pain every Mother goes through.

And somehow I have this mentality that only females can truly understand what being a Mother is like, some realize it early while some only after having their own kids.

A Mother's love is definitely the greatest. 

Knowing the unknowing

Sometimes, you look at others and; watch them dance in the smallest act of love.
Sometimes, you then look at yourself and; realize you too have the tiniest blessings in life.

Sometimes, what scares you is knowing everything you see and possess right now is so vulnerable.
That just a wrong move and the (beautiful) picture you've painted will smudge and be tainted, forever.

I dreamed a dream.
A nightmare.
That the love I knew was all a façade.
That when I was forced to let go, all there was left to hold one to was nothing.
Nothing hurt more than knowing that the truth was just a lie.

I woke up crying.
He reassured me nothing of that sort was going to happen.
I love him so much.

He whispered "I love you".
I snuggled in his arms.
Fear and reassurance flowed through me, down the corner of my eyes.
He wiped them off my face.
He loves me.
And so do I.